A Many Lives Memoir
By Michael R. Kramer
Soul to God
We are Soul (Continued)
Each of us is on this path. There are countless souls ahead of us, behind us, and beside us. Highly evolved souls have been assigned to guide each of us, ancient spiritual friends who have completed their journey long ago. They are always near, speaking to us in ways we don’t always comprehend. They work to implant ideas, bring about coincidences, link people to us, and help pave our way. We are never alone.
As you read this book, I’m beside you now, a fellow traveler. We are walking together on this journey home. Let me speak to you as we walk, entertain you with stories that enlighten and ease the miles.
Let me begin by saying your viewpoint is sacred to me. I wouldn’t change it. But I would invite you to open your mind while reading this book, to give yourself permission to tune into a deep stillness. From within that stillness springs an organic change that can manifest in a more fulfilling, happier life—a friendlier universe. The spiritual strength and guidance we long for is but a heartbeat away. We just need to “get the knack” of relaxing our conscious mind to tune into the wisdom of higher thought, to tweak the dials of our perception to experience the consciousness of saints. It is possible to transcend thought and opinion, to enter into a state of pure being and knowing. This book is made up of stories about that experience and is intended to act as a meditation, an exercise in exploring your unique path to the Divine.
Our Lifeline from Source
Humans have been thrown a lifeline from the heavenly worlds. Our right brain appears to be hardwired to our higher consciousness self and God. This lifeline from Source links us to Soul awareness. Its focus is on the present moment—which one could argue is all there is. We lived our past in a present moment, and we will live our future in a present moment. In the deepest sense of reality, all life happens within an eternal Now. But our left brain gets confused here because it needs to organize time and events sequentially to function. Its perception of time dominates our earthly experience. Like my parents’ seemingly opposing viewpoints, our two brains combine to make an efficient team, able to learn from its past and plan a future, while embracing a deeper wisdom and connection to God within the present.
If we block our left brain’s perception for a moment and view life through our right brain, we live in a friendly universe. We don’t feel alienated from others or God because we intuitively experience Soul awareness. We tap into deep levels of creativity that inspire works of creation outstripping our limited past. The conservative world often devalues our right brain’s abilities to add meaning to life, to experience bliss, joy, compassion, and love. It frequently devalues artistic expression and insights outside of its tight box of perceived reality. These attributes add no value to its bottom line. It clings to the past and fears an evolution beyond itself.
We function best by paying attention to both parents of evolution, our left and right brains. We can be mindful of the lessons of the past, while opening pathways for communication with our higher self, embracing a sense of sacred oneness with others and God. The left-brain sense of separation and need to dominate through fear has ruled humankind since our prehistoric beginning. A new age is upon us. It’s time for balance, allowing the sacred to work through us in every way. This new path can bring peace on Earth.
Our Lifeline from Source
Humans have been thrown a lifeline from the heavenly worlds. Our right brains appear to be hard-wired to our higher consciousness self and God. This lifeline from Source links us to our divine purpose and Soul awareness. Its focus is on the present moment—which one could argue—is all there is. We lived our past in a present moment, and will live our future in a present moment. In the deepest sense of reality—all life happens within an eternal Now. But our left brain gets confused here because it needs to organize time and events sequentially to function. Its perception of time dominates our Earthly experience. Like my parents seemingly opposing viewpoints, our two brains combine to make an efficient team, able to learn from its past and plan a future, while embracing a deeper wisdom and connection to God within the present.
If we block our left brain perspective for a moment and view life through our right brain, we live in a friendly universe. We don't feel alienated from others or God because we intuitively experience Soul awareness. We tap into deep levels of creativity that inspire works of creation outstripping our limited past. The conservative world often devalues, and even ignores, our right brain's abilities to add meaning to life, to experience bliss, joy, compassion, and love. These attributes add no value to its bottom line. It fears an evolution beyond itself.
We function best by paying attention to both parents of evolution, our right and left brains. We can be mindful of the lessons of the past, while opening pathways for communication with our higher-self, embracing a sense of sacred oneness with others and God. The left-brain sense of separation and need to dominate through fear has ruled humankind since its prehistoric beginning. A new age is upon us. It's time for balance, allowing the sacred to work through us in every way. This new path can bring peace on Earth.
Our minds are not the originator of thought as once believed. Our brain acts more like a radio, able to receive different frequencies of thought from an endless field of consciousness. Our life is shaped by our environment, upbringing, and by any karma brought forward by Soul to create our life lesson path. Thought patterns are chemically imprinted in our physical brain simultaneously creating a signature link to our etheric sub-mind (subconscious mind). These create habits of thinking and perception. We activate these streams of thought simply by placing our attention on them. The thought pattern is immediately activated, and we find ourselves on the hamster wheel of that thought pattern, which can repeat itself many times a day.
We've all noticed our tendency to think the same thoughts over and over through the day. Thought patterns can become like ruts in a frequently traveled dirt road. Our thinking tends to fall into these ruts whenever we go down-that-road. Soul intelligence within us can break up these thought patterns. We can experience new thoughts, appreciate new viewpoints, and incorporate new thinking into our lives.
Most of us don't realize we have the ability to reach into more sophisticated levels of integrative thought. Higher frequency thinking is more interconnected and logical. It's imbued with spiritual wisdom. Lower frequency thought supports less integrated, has more conflicted perceptions, often based on fear. Higher thought can create harmonies such as music, poetry, art, and a more integrative, holistic science.
Our saints had the gift of being able to tune into thought frequencies that most of us don’t experience on a daily basis. Those who know how to reach beyond their ego, to pray humbly, can do the same.
Prayer and Meditation
Prayer is talking to God. Meditation is listening to God. We need both for a healthy relationship. If we talk all the time and don’t listen, we miss the guidance being offered and slow our spiritual growth. If we listen without talking, we become passive and fail to reach our full potential as creative beings. We need to combine the prayerful traditions of the West with the meditative practices of the East to become whole and balanced.
Our calling is to become the fullest expression of our unique, divine being. It’s best to pray and meditate, and then create. It’s best to dream the best we can dream, and then be flexible enough to allow a higher intelligence to give us something better. Life works best when we recognize our divine guidance and are brave enough to act on that advice. To express our Divine Intelligence is to evolve into a fuller expression of ourselves. We’ll be healthier and happier.
When we meditate, we learn how to still the habitual, repetitious thoughts of our left brain’s monkey mind to tune into subtle frequencies. Prayer and meditation can tweak our radio dial from its regular, preset stations to receive frequencies many of us don’t readily receive. In fact, most among Earth’s population are unaware of their ability to play with the radio dials of their conscious perception, so that they can remember past lives, tap into groundbreaking insights, and experience a healing, transforming, life energy.
My Life Story
I’ve always experienced life a bit differently than most. For instance, I’ve never feared death because I remember dying so many times and know what comes afterward. I know that I’m Soul, having a human experience. At two years of age, I recalled my life between lives, my friends and teachers before I was born, and how rewarding our work was. Those memories stuck with me but made life very uncomfortable. I felt like I was trapped in a dark world and was homesick for the higher realms. At five, I began suffering from frequent nightmares of a violent death in a past life. At twelve, I started experiencing past-life memories of a life in a Tibetan monastery. I learned to hide my abilities and experiences so that I blended in. I was quiet, careful to share only what others were prepared to understand. I realized that they were not experiencing the same memories and love. Otherwise, it would have been impossible for them to be cruel and not care about all life.
I chose to keep my abilities and experiences under wraps until the time came when I was comfortable and I felt more confident that the world was ready to listen. I’m not completely comfortable with sharing now, or convinced that I’m the right person to be doing this. I feel like I’m a bit undersized for this task, quiet and less well spoken. But I’ve kicked the can down the road long enough. As Wayne Dyer once advised, we need to share our music while it’s still in us. I don’t think I would be able to leave this world comfortably without writing this book. In a way, this book completes my life.
While reading Soul to God, I invite you to relax into a stillness within and experience the friendly presence of your guide. Pay attention to the subtle inner nudges and thoughts that occur to you. Be bold enough to experiment, to test your inner guidance, and give it a chance to prove itself. Don’t worry about where you are spiritually. Avoid comparing yourself to others, and don’t be concerned about what you don’t know. Be confident that what you need to know will come to you in its own time. Relax and grow naturally from where you are. You are in the most critical place and time—you are here, Now. Your path is unique—and you are unique. Rest in that.
The stories in Soul to God are not meant to convince you of my viewpoint. They are intended to entertain and be contemplations. They are not an accurate history of my life or lives. They are my honest personal perspective. Personal viewpoints are always skewed by the observer. But my deepest belief is that I’m not the real observer. I believe God is the true observer through our eyes. That’s the point of this book, to begin to see and feel through the eyes and heart of God.
At heart, I am a skeptic and take everyone and everything with a grain of salt. I have deeply ingrained memories of my life as a Tibetan Buddhist Monk growing up in a Lhasa Monastery in the 14th century. As a part of our study, we participated in sport-like debates in an outdoor courtyard to deepen our comprehension of Buddhist doctrine in order to advance in our studies. I loved the sport of debate and was good at it. I later became a lama instructing debate traditions to young monks.
Within these debate exercises, I taught my students how to think logically and to challenge all viewpoints, even scripture in holy books. I believed it was especially important to challenge one’s own thinking. I emphasized that we should take nothing for granted in our efforts to open wide the doors to comprehension and clear perspective. I believed these open doors led to the enlightened state, nirvana.
I confess that I did not reach nirvana in that lifetime, much to my frustration on my death bed. I remember lying in my small cell looking up at my young assistant. A single small oil lamp cast a light on his young face. My last thoughts were that I must use my future lives to explore other paths to realize the one, unnamed path that leads to final liberation. Some five centuries later, here I am writing this book after experiencing lives as a Shinto Monk, Zen Buddhist, Hindu, Hasidic Jew, Sikh, and Christian. I never dreamed I’d discover that the final liberation I’d been working towards was just the beginning of another stage in our ongoing evolution as Soul.
The reason I’ve waited so long to write this book is that I am that Tibetan lama skeptic who challenges all—including himself. I see things from my viewpoint while deeply appreciating differing views. I don’t assume that my position is entirely accurate or the final word, so I’m very careful in expressing my ideas. I was born with an ingrained, almost fierce need to challenge any viewpoint that appears illogical.
In my senior year at a private all-boys, college-prep Catholic high school, I got wind that the teaching Jesuit brothers had created a list of troublemakers. Most on the list were students who had been in fights or were suspected of petty crimes. My friend, who spied the list in the school office, told me that I was number six on their list. The brothers’ complaint was that I “Openly challenged Catholic doctrine in Religion classes.” I smiled when my friend told me this and thought, YES! I dared challenge the prejudices of the status quo. Being on that list was a badge of honor to me.
There comes a time in people’s lives when they respectfully set aside the viewpoints of others to claim the freedom to express their truth, then let the chips fall where they may. I realize my life stories are a bit fantastic and the coincidences seem implausible. One reason I’ve waited so long to write this book is that I wanted to get out of writing it. I felt that, if I were in your place, I’d find these stories too difficult to believe. I saw other, more capable spiritual teachers saying about the same thing in a more elegant way. I reasoned my voice was unnecessary. Why risk exposing myself?
But that was an excuse—a delay tactic. I’m sixty-eight, and I won’t be around forever—so here it is, Soul to God. I remember starting to write this book when I was ten. I had about seven pages done when my mother asked me what I was writing. I told her I was writing an important story about my life. She asked me how the story ended? I responded, “I don’t know, but I can’t wait to find out!” She laughed and I realized that I didn’t have a clear plan for the book, only a trust and a sense that I had to write it. All my life, I’ve felt like I needed to document all the miracles that happened to me, not to impress or seek attention, but to share and invite readers to discover the divine in their own lives.
And so, close to 60 years later, I’m again setting out to work on this book with a trust in God and some help from above. I’m uncomfortable calling attention to myself. I’ve always preferred to be quiet and work in the background, to channel spirit to others without their knowing. Now, I’m being asked to step up and share my thoughts and stories from my lives, both inner and outer. I remember my guide, Cho Mon, saying to me, “We didn’t put all this work into your life for just you.”
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